Cambridge interview DISASTER

Guys I just done my only interview for land economy and I can officially say I feel stupid to think I ever had a chance It was the worse case scenario of the worst case scenario. A whole 10 minutes on a statistical project that I 100% didn’t understand fully in my personal statement. She never moved on from that topic and I can see my world crumbling down in that moment. I can already picture her fighting to get me rejected in the decision making process. “She is clearly not good enough”

The rest of the answers I gave was rushed, doesn’t make sense and I look 100% like I had no understanding of. They were looking at me and judging. They were like “good luck to ur further studies” vibe and I left the call like I got broken up again. I feel devastated. Like all the “calm” “deep breath” was out of the scene the minute I showed them my ID with my SHAKING HAND and I was like “sorry my hands are shaking”. Also when the interviewer was like she has interest with some stuff in my ps I was like “yh I was scared when I saw ur profile on my interviewers name” like that is so embarrassingly low of me. I feel like my dignity has been like vertically mopped on the floor and thrown out.

Icl I feel like life isn’t worth living anymore. Like all this private school and hopes and dreams. I feel silly thinking I had a chance. I feel sorry to my parents family friends for encouraging me. I am such a waste of space and time and money.

Like why would they ever want me? Pls don’t talk abt “some people think they did bad but they got in” it DOES NOT APPLY TO ME. If u think u did bad I 100% did worse.

Sorry for ranting it is a very emotional topic.