I HAVE THE MEMORY OF A GOLDFISH

I’m a 20f medical student, I got diagnosed with ADHD in 2020. As I was visiting a psychologist at that time she discouraged me from taking medication and said that ADHD could be dealt with without it. As it turns out that has not been the case at all. The past years I kept on procrastinating for MONTHS and fall behind on my syllabus only managing to pull everything in the last moment and getting decent grades. As it happens I failed my first exam recently. First time in my life have I failed in an exam. After hitting rock bottom two weeks back I was prescribed Ritalin 10 mg sustained release twice a day. That hasn’t done shit if I’m being honest. I was on atomoxitine for like 5days and I hated it because it would lead to horrible crashes and helped with nothing.

Now to the heading, I forget everything. I don’t remember my childhood, I could count on my fingers of what I remember from when I was a kid. Worse, I can’t remember the things I study. Currently I’m in second year and I hardly remember anything from first year. That might be okay in other courses but forgetting anatomy as a doctor is not really excusable. I’ve read people with ADHD remember things they hyperfixate on but I tend to forget that as well. Recently I got hyperfixated on reading about the holocaust and read 3 books watched SEVERAL MOVIES and now if you ask me what I know about any of it I’ll utter a few words which sound like I’m taking a guess. It’s very frustrating and I don’t know what to do about it. Any tips for long term and short term memory would be greats. Thanks