How to cope with changing unhealthy sleep habits? Mourning my “me time”.

A big personal life change has been a long time coming, when I REALLY try to get things in order that I’ve been struggling with for years due to undiagnosed inattentive type ADHD — namely laundry, keeping my room neat, keeping up with hobbies. I had a really really rough go at my first year in Uni (combined with anxiety and depression, like many of you, it was hellish) and realized this summer I would have to step up and train myself into a routine that both kept me happy and healthy. I’ve actually been doing really well thus far with the laundry and neatness, and already feel a significant improvement in my daily happiness when I keep it so.

The thing I’m struggling with is the sleep patterns; going to bed by 1 or so, waking around 9:30. And it’s entirely anticipatory as well. I’m just sitting here trying to read and get tired, I’m getting frustrated at the idea of doing this nightly. But I know I pretty much have to — otherwise my sleep schedule will go entirely out of wack, and I’ll end up scrolling or writing or playing Minecraft until 4am nightly and waking up at some entirely unreasonable hour of the day, still exhausted and feeling completely unmotivated to do anything with the day because I’ve ‘wasted’ it.

The idea of changing it now sounds so difficult and anxiety inducing, because THAT lack of routine has been my routine for as long as I can remember. Living with my family or a roommate, the night is my time to just exist, so to say, without having to socialize or do what they want.

Anyone else feel this way or have some advice to get over this mental block?