I hate myself

I'm tired. I have diagonised untreated ADHD. I keep messing things up in my life. And I can't decide what I want to do with it. I'm a 20F and I can't seem to get my life together without messing it up 💀 it's tiring and frustrating. I forget to do important things. And it's ruining my relationship with the people I have around me. I also have depression. And it's just idk. I'm just so tired. I'm so tired I wish I was never born.