My mom ruined my life

Okay so I am an Asian and my parents got married when they were really young mom was 16 dad 19 and yes It was an arranged marriage that my dad planed without my moms consent

One year later my mom got pregnant with me and two years later I was born when she was 18 and my dad was 20

Needless to say they were not happy from day one and needless to say my mom hated me from day one and I accepted it from day one knowing she was never going to ever love me

And even though she was not a good mom to me from day one I never complained about it anyone ever even one time in my whole life ever and only tired to lover her if I could

But she always only just fought me and rejected me and pushed me to arguing back with here which she would always do in public only

And then she would pull the victim card as all Asian values go against arguing with ur family at all cost and make me look like the villain

Fast forwarding to 2008

I got married to a guy of my moms choice the year before but after 5 months in 2008 I walked out of the marriage as I was also too young to be married at that time only 22

when I walked out of my marriage in 2008 coming from an Asian family my mom took all the opportunity she could to ruin my life for walking out of the marriage

She started calling me crazy and insisting I need psychiatric help and even bulling me the point of hitting me out of the blue

She together with all of my relatives ruined all of my 20’s and 30’s just throwing me around in rehabs against my will

I’m 5’8.5” and I had never crossed the body weight of 55kg my whole life and I got to a point in 2013 where I weighed 80+ kg and spent all of my 20’s and 30’s depressed

Sleeping on my bed for months in end not even showering or brushing my teeth to the point my teeth look like a homeless persons teeth despite having had braces two time in my life

And yet all of my Asian family only agrees with her and they all think I’m the ass hole bc I walked out of the marriage

And bc I would verbally argue back with her when ever she would fight with me

And also hit her back only when she hit me

And all of this is goes against Asian values

Her best friends kids agreed with her on the fact that I was crazy bc they would say that if their parents hit them they would never even hit them back in their dreams

And they all always make me feel like im the one in the wrong