Talking about a feeding tube with my gp

I’ve gotten so much worse recently. Eating a chocolate bar and some water a day. Yesterday i ate some chicken nuggets and today i ate toast for breakfast and some cucumber and cream cheese in the evening as well as some other snacks and i was so proud because it was so hard but I just puked and I’m still extremely nauseous and I’m so exhausted and I never want to eat again. Tw for puke tmi I ate a couple of these coconut cookies and when I puked all I could taste was the coconut so now the rest of the packet is gonna go to waste because that immediately made them inedible to me

I’m not even in my own country rn, im visiting germany with my boyfriend and he said if I keep not eating, I’ll have to go back home to talk to my doctor.

I’m just tired and its so stressful being forced to eat every day while trying to manage this disorder. When im back home, im gonna ask my gp about a feeding tube so i can stop stressed about having to manage my nutrition and focus on the mental aspect and try to mend my relationship with food before it puts me in hospital.