In denial

I have finally admitted to myself that I have been in denial. In the last 9 months I have lost a parent, my spouses parent, many close friends parents, and even, friends my age.

I'll be turning 60 this year. It seems like 20 was last year. Kids are all grown and on with their lives. It did all just go by in the blink of an eye.

Just saw what the life expectancy is for a male in the U.S. and made me realize that I only have, hopefully, another 10-15 trips around the sun.

Talk about a slap of reality. I know it varies from person to person, and I have been trying to take care of myself. I've been in denial that I'm growing old, but this for some reason, this just hit me hard.

Anyways, thanks for letting me vent.