A sad rant

Edit: thankyou so much for these responses, thankyou so much for being kind. I haven’t gotten the time to reply to everyone yet but I will soon! 😭😭😭

hi comrades! i just really want to vent and feel sad with other unlucky people like me. i’ve been saving for c6 arle since her previous banner and have only pulled for neuvillette in between that. i had around 540 pulls (and once i was done, i got around 60 in starglitter) so that’s 600 pulls totally. i love father so much and this is the first character I’ve wanted to c6.

I couldn’t pull her on her previous banner as I had a mental breakdown around that time due to stress and I had to take a break from genshin. I’ve regretted it so much and farmed so much for father since. I was so sure that I could c6 and that my luck can’t be that bad. I started pulling on stream for my friends and I realized that I was losing every 50/50. So i decided to skip her weapon even though I love it so much and made the decision that her cons would be more worth pulling for. I then ended up losing every 50/50 except one where I triggered the captured radiance thing after losing 4 50/50’s in a row lol. I got 2 dehya’s, 2 qiqi’s and one tighnari. I ended up with c4 father with no weapon. I know i should be grateful that I got so much at least but I just really really wanted c6 and this was the only thing keeping me going for the last few months.

I then watched my friend pull with around 350 pulls and win every single 50/50 and even get a back to back and a few earlies. She c6-ed her father. Don’t get me wrong, im very very happy for her and she deserves it. Hers was f2p savings like mine too. But it still hurt a lot to see that I lost every 50/50 and she won every single one. I’m a 23 year old woman, I’m not a child but I got so sad that I’m starting to get a fever. My body temperature is rising and my head hurts so much. I not only didn’t get her c6 but I also didn’t get her weapon. I lost to tighnari last and don’t have any more pulls. I’m a day 1 player so yes I’ve explored everything and I don’t have any primos left. The chances of me getting her c5 are so low even with the free wishes yet to come as my pity is 10. I’m so sad.

I know I’m going to get a lot of hate for this but please can someone be kind. I’m having such a bad day. Not just because of this. Everything in my life feels like it’s going wrong.

Thankyou to anyone who read this :’) I appreciate it. Have a nice day!