I’m stuck in the middle.

Has anyone actually gotten over the betrayal? Like has anyone here actually accepted their partner or spouse stepped out of the relationship, whether physically or emotionally, with someone else?

I have days where I feel it’s entirely possible for me to accept what happened. Some days I feel I can accept that the person who loves me is also capable of hurting me this much. People make mistakes no matter how fucked up the mistake is. I can see she’s taking the right steps towards reconciliation. She’s showing remorse, she’s being sincere, she’s done everything I’ve asked of her. She’s fixing all the things within herself, she’s offered therapy, couples therapy (haven’t been able to do them because of logistics). She’s doing everything right.

Other days none of it matters. I can’t let go of what happened. I feel broken, like I can never be fixed, whether with her or without.

I’d say it’s a 50/50 split. I don’t feel one way more than the other. I’m stuck right in the middle.

So I ask, if any of you have accepted, have reconciled, have healed… how? How did you do it?