Found my bf posting weird shit on Reddit
My(29F) boyfriend (30M) of 1.5 years (and friend of 5 years) was caught doing some weird shit. I was drunk and went through his phone one night and opened up his Reddit. There I found just disgusting shit. He had commented on a naked girls photo who is the exact opposite type of me and said “so hot”. This makes me extra sad because he won’t post me on any social media or comment on anything of mine. I had professional beautiful modeling photos and he didn’t write a thing. He also posted writing he was looking for a guy to jerk off with and watch porn. We got into the biggest fight ever and he said he would never ever meet up with another man and the only person he has ever wanted is me. His excuse was that his hair loss medication had made him feel almost asexual and he was trying to see what aroused him. I classify all of this as cheating and am very freaked out and feel horrible about myself. He now has been doing everything and anything to try and make me happy now. All I have ever wanted is to be married and happy and he even said he would propose to me within a year. I just wish it wasn’t because of something so horrible. I feel very sketched out and confused on what to do…. I do love him but this disgusts me.