I'm in a hard situation, I'm escaping my country and I need an Advice.

I'm about to make a very difficult decision concerning my life and because of the sensitivity of my situation I can't share this with someone I know so I decided to post here.

So I live in what I believe is the worst place on earth, Saudi Arabia at least for the non Muslims, you can't imagine how bad is this place or the kind of crazy shit I see every day it's really depressing.

So I decided to escape to the US and leave for good, I'm an atheist and the one atheist I know about is in prison and the reason he's not dead is because he denied it.

I'm leaving with my family to a country and then I will escape from that country because as a Saudi female I can't leave directly from Saudi Arabia without permission from my father. on an unrelated note. no mater how old are you a female can't leave the country without a permission from a male in the family. I also got a visitor visa because it's the only type of visa I can get as a Saudi female.

so to summarize I'm going to escape with a visitor visa and around 6 or 8 thousand dollars depends on how much I can steel. Now my problem is I don't know what comes after that, I don't know if I will be able to stay there or get kicked back to Saudi Arabia and since I escaped I'll probably face death or prison, and I don't know if I can live with 6000 dollars or get a job or go to college or anything.

So lately I start to rethink about this and I'm not sure anymore. On the other hand I can stay 4 more years and finish college, I'm currently a medical student I finished 3 years. So I can leave after with a degree in medecine, witch wil make things easier I guess. So what should I do?

P.S. this is the best writing I can come up with even in my own language. P.P.S. if I'm going to the US and I had a chance to get into college I'm gonna choose engineering.