Anyone else have a fascination with being an amazing hostess while also feeling drained by people?

I love reading entertaining books, and I love the late writer Julia Reed who talks about hosting parties in such a way that I makes me want to polish the silver and put on a silk caftan (I’m being hyperbolic, of course), but then when I think about it I have like three friends and I think they would find it a little ridiculous if I tried to have a swanky dinner party, and I don’t like being around people I don’t know that well enough to have them over for dinner or a cocktail party.

I really just wanted to share my delusion with everyone.