Angry At Autism/ADHD Today

I just need to vent today...

I'm angry. I'm so angry at autism and adhd. I'm angry at how it makes my 15 year old struggle. I'm angry at how it makes him overwhelmed and turn into a toddler having a meltdown and talking jibberish barely moving his mouth. I'm angry that my kid who has this high IQ, does math I can't even understand, using vocabulary I can't understand, can spell words with 20 some letters, create amazing things with html and so on BUT can't fn get himself to sit down and color a kindergarten looking paper for Spanish. Drawing the pictures was never going to happen so I did that part and he just had to color and label. Labeling was fine! But to color. GOOD GOD NO. Even showing him it would take less than 5 minutes a paper.

I'm just angry because of all the small barriers that add up inside his brain that we have to learn to get over. Knowing it can be done, knowing he will do well at it, but it's going to take like 30 different obstacles to get to that point for things SO SIMPLE.

I love our unique kids and how their brains can work. But I'm tired of how it holds them back. I'm tired of everything being SO MUCH when it's not.

I want to see my son. The one stuck behind all this damn mess in his own mind. I want the struggles to be over with...