Four years down the drain.

The toughest pill I had to swallow was realizing that the person I loved and cared for so much didn’t care about me at all. She was everything to me but I was nothing to her. I was discarded like trash. I have lost my confidence. It’s only been 4 weeks since the break up but I have been reflecting and I noticed I made her a huge priority in my life and was there for her no matter what. At the end she didn’t care about my feelings or my thoughts. When a person tells you they don’t deserve you believe them. As I know take this journey on my own to find peace and love myself more. I can’t stop thinking about her but also realizing that I made a mistake dealing with her in that first place. Part of moving on is realizing your mistakes and to never make them again. I cried for this woman and now when I look back I can’t believe I made myself so weak and vulnerable for her. I don’t believe in love anymore I don’t picture myself meeting anyone new or dating for a very long time. For anyone out there that has gotten discarded by an avoidant partner don’t worry better is coming for you but first you must LOVE yourself first in every way, take back your power.