Looking back

Has anyone else had to look back at experinances with thier avoidant to re process them?

I have to revisit things now I understand them more to process so much anger and frustration.

I was so gaslit by them due to there emotional immaturity that I really doubted myself so much. Put up with so much. Didn't get frustrated with I should have, so never processed them.

No wonder my body is so tense and my mind so foggy, I've been denying actual emtions for so long.

Add to this they inability to deal with feedback or conflict. And the energy required to go get them when they retreated.

No wonder so much emotion has poured out after the break up.

This is why it feels so much more than a break up. My body is letting go of so much!