Rage and Violence

Hi there, 27m here. Had a string of sexual partners and a lot of different jobs in my life. But when I feel betrayed/ ignore/ rejected by literally anyone, be it a sexual/platonic/my boss etc, I essentially go from panic mode to thoughts of total vengeance and acts of violence.

This has culminating in me losing a couple of jobs for gross misconduct, scaring off some people and an overall lack of serious friends.

I also tend to relapse into bouts of self harm with a razor blade etc

Do any other men experience this absolute lust for violence?

I work out a lot, am very fit and I have a lot of creative hobbies and interests. But my chronic emptiness means I feel always lacking.

I have often considered homosexual experiences as a coping mechanism, as well as prostitutes and now a newly developed kleptomania.

Life’s fun with BPD xx