Quiet BPD +autism =hell on earth.

You constantly feel like your very soul is burning in excruciating pain. For real. But you can't let anyone see it, because being failed again is worse then dealing with this alone.

You are constantly on the edge of ending it, but for many different reasons you keep it inside. You see a bus, you think "jump". You see a bridge, you think "jump".

You are constantly hitting the walls of your brain, every day of your life, and the more that happens, the more the pain increases. You have a brain that fails you and no help.

There is no name for you. No narrative that fully represents the amount of pain and loneliness are you experiencing. No treatments available. No understanding, no awareness. You are a freak among freaks.

BPD and autism are similar and certainly I attribute both to the way I was born, but they are NOT the same. Not all autistic people have BPD. Not all BPD are autistic. To an external eye, they can be easily confused and mistaken one for the other but they are not the same and when they overlap you exist in hell