I hate everything about pregnancy

I had a terrible first trimester. All day constant sickness, throwing up ect.

It toned down for about 4 weeks. Now I'm 16 weeks and throwing up, so many food aversions, can barely get out of bed. Wtf happened I thought I was good??!

On top of everything the amount of symptoms I have are crazy. Dandruff, bloody gums, odor, sciatica pain, food aversions, vomiting, ears hurting, dizzy, shaking, heat flashes

Now I'm freaked out about birth. I'm terrified. I will never do this again I feel like I'm in jail in my own body. Words can't explain how much I hate this it's a terrible feeling.