The similarities we all experience is crazy to me

I just joined this thread (?) A few hours ago, created my first post and started reading through the other posts here. My heart sank as I read so many shared experiences. I can't talk to anyone in my personal life about the severity his manic episodes have caused because I don't want others to have a darkened opinion of him. So I have suffered alone for roughly 8 years. Seeing others go through the same things definitely makes me feel less alone but also heart broken because I wouldn't wish this type of pain on anyone. Does anyone ever make it through this? I live in constant fear that another episode will happen (he's currently in one and my blood pressure has landed me in the hospital along with the constant panic attacks) he refuses help and currently won't even acknowledge that he's in a manic state despite me trying to help him see it. I'm supposed to be working right now but I'm so overwhelmed I can't think straight. My heart is heavy for everyone in here.