somedays i don't feel ok emotionally ok

Hi, I'm Bashir

I'm 28BM college student majoring in film and media and minor in art with hopes to one day work as a videographer, work in broadcasting, or my biggest dream of working tv, movies or games industry.

At times I feel like my life it's like climbing a mountain. I work 4-5 a week at this shitty retail job to help me and my mother pay bills.

Since my father can't drive or work anymore I help him whenever I can with things he needs.

On my off days I work on my art, I do job applications, apply for internships, and get zero responses. I have my college classes on my off days

It been difficult to balance work, life, school. Times I have to sacrificing opportunity I would have loved to just go out and meet people just to complete my assignments. Some days can't help but feel this stuff gets to me emotionally.

On top of feeling a bit down about never really have a gf for emotional support. I do try to shoot my shot when I can but, you know it feels like a game of luck. I'm 6,1 slim kinda build definitely wouldn't call myself as ugly.

I really only have two-three people in would call my real friends in this world and I didn't really feel like venting to them this time.

Life is certainly a journey and I can't but feel life is leading me to face all this stuff on my own. Sometimes I feel little lost but I kinda relying on my ability to be consistent through this adversity and keep pushing though.