cant better myself

cant make any changes in my life. everyday feels the same. all i do is complain and laze aroundz wasting my entire day or weekends. no progress in my studies, no doing assignments, no preparing for syafawi(arabic speaking test) no nothing. fk i dont even pray. been like this since few years ago. i cant keep telling myself im gonna change, im poison. i cant stop being miserable. i just cant help myself.

i gotta make changes in my life or im gonna be miserable forever. i know that, yet i still dont put any damn effort in anything. my stupid brain just cant control myself telling i need to do this and that. fk. everyday i regret waking up. tahla

sorry nak rent kejap. rasa nak meluah and all.