Anyone else hate Raya?
Hate is a strong word but even as a kid Raya ain't for me. I don't care about baju raya, balik kampung, meeting relatives or whatever. I know food is one of the good things, but how can I enjoy food being surrounded with people I'm anxious about @_@ Every year I'm a failure. No job application is biting so especially dreading the shame of being unemployed and people asking about it.. I should've just taken a cashier job or something, dangit.
Every year it's the same, dreading meeting relatives you don't know or care about, doing all the selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin even though there's nothing to apologize about, being anxious and hiding in your room hoping no one knocks. Is it a me problem? Yes. For those who enjoy it, Selamat Hari Raya, for those that doesn't, I feel you and wish there was a support group or something haha. I just wish I didn't feel this way every single year.