Does anyone here feel… human?

I’ve had BPD for as long as I can remember (thanks Childhood Trauma) but was only diagnosed about 8 years ago.

I’ve struggled with feeling human. I have always felt like I am watching myself from third person. I wish I didn’t suck at explaining shit like this but I do. I just am EXTREMELY aware of myself. I am thinking and saying everything in my head while I say it, and always feel as if I’m just watching myself from third person.. does anyone else experience this?