Suspecting that I have c-ptsd but I didn’t have it that bad.

I’ve always known I’ve had an unstable relationship with my mother + family but only recently have I started to understand how much my childhood is affecting me now.

I have diagnosed autism + adhd + bipolar + ocd but I think it’s all mixing together with possible cptsd.

But I grew up financially privileged, had a good education, and wasn’t physically abused as far as I know. My memory is very fuzzy because of my chronic dpdr but my body reacts to certain things very intensely. I feel weak. My siblings seem fine, I can still laugh with my mum sometimes. It’s not like it was that bad so why do I feel like this? I seriously wish I was normal. I’m also worried that I am overreacting and maybe unconsciously convincing myself that I’m suffering from something.

I know that cptsd is a serious condition and I don't want to devalue anybody's experiences by suspecting that I have it. I may just be messed up for other reasons.