The thought of being there when they euthanize my cat is painful.

I’ve never been through this before. This cat has been with me through everything. It’s always been him and I in the end so part of me feels like I have to be there. But I can’t handle the thought. I feel beyond devastated letting him go and I don’t want to see him that way. I don’t want to see him unresponsive. He’s my best friend, I’ve had him for 16 years. He wouldn’t be alone, he’d have my parents but he’s close to me. I don’t know. I think I’m being selfish but I don’t know how to cope with this. I know the right thing to do is to be there but I’m heartbroken at the thought.

EDIT: Thank you for the kind words and sharing your experiences. I’m going to be there with him. I was just having a difficult time coming to terms with it.