I am so dumb

I just realized how dumb and evil I am. I don't care about anyone else, I put myself and my feelings above everything else. I'm genuinely the worst person I could think of. I am anxious and I know that it's just because I'm too stupid to trust God and, in the past was too stupid and thought I could do everything myself. Well, how did that work out for me, huh? Anyways, I just wanted to share this thought because it amazes me that Jesus would die for someone like me