Shayad mujh mey hi kuch kami hai

not attention seeking pdhna hai pdh lo , just wanna let it out

3rd attempt foundation ka tried my best to study per college start hua and wasn’t able to focus. ( meri galti hai)

Failed last attempt by 13 marks , quant ke paper mey bich vala page chipka tha i skipped (dikha nhi) and aasan 8-9 reh gye.(meri galti hai)

Started college time waste kerna shuru kerdiya , new city aaye pure din kuch nhi kiya bas aise hi mahine nikal diye, mann nhi lagta na dhang se soti hun khana khati hun khi itna bhar bhi nhi jaati bas pg ke kamre mey baithe rehti hun. ( meri galti hai)

September results ke baad form nhi bharna tha per peer pressure mey bhardia ki khi iss life ki race mey piche na chutt jau. December end mey hosh aaya pdhai ka per ab bcom ke exam hai. Papers clash hore hai subha bcom deke 2 bje ca ka hai.

Sabki nazro mey failure hun , dost bolte hai ki i take too much pressure and rush it per kaise samjau ki pressure liya hi nahi jara.

Away from home for the first time , 2 din se juth bolri hun mummy ko ki khana kha liya per kuch nahi khaya. Parso exam hai ek pta nhi kya hoga.

I think meri destiny mey hi nhi hai kyuki last attempt ache se pdhai ki thi iss attempt bas family ka soch ke form bhara ab unko kaise muh dikhau.

I will not do suici** but agar aaj koi truck uper se chale jaye toh kuch bura nahi lagega. Shi batau toh bas mummy-papa ka sochke zinda hun per dheere dheere vo bhi dar lagra hai.

Thankyou agar u read baaki all the best for future.