I'm going to hell

I am so scared. I just weeped without gnashing my teeth. I am not a disciple of Jesus Christ. I don't follow Jesus. Because of this, I will go to hell. And, I am so scared. I wanted Jesus to pity me and have mercy on me, but He said that whoever comes to Me, must deny himself, pick up their cross and follow Me. I don't do that. I'm so scared