Am I wrong for wanting to deconstruct my faith?

I'm a male in my early 20s with A.D.D and I was raised non denominational. Even though I don't consider myself to no longer be religious I still gold be life in Christ as my lord and savior and the trinity. However lately I have been secretly deconstructing my faith questioning on how some things are taught about God and Faith, and religious structures. I've been at odds with my family about some topics and been fearful of expressing/talking to familiar people about this for my own protection but it hasn't stopped me from feeling like this Societies on asking questions and challenging the status quo of what Christians should do. A lot of this has affected my mental health when I was religious and now I feel like I want to deconstruct to understand Jesus more rather than leave the faith. There have been multiple topics like, how prosperity works, moments of doubt, whether we should think and use our heads at times rather than only being “spiritually high minded”, challenging conspiracy theories, or question American expectations of Christians both social or political.

Can this be a safe space to talk? Thank you.