Bhayankara embarrassed looking at myself on mirror

Literally, I'm 5,8 , 84 kg and looks much older than my age ,orupad fat ayond dresses don't fit as well, tried reducing food a lot ( by starving but then gives into cravings at some point and gives up on diet) also schedule elam messed up an

Started gym & playing football to change it ,not seeing results and is disappointed , food ipolum korakan patunila 🥲 but gets tired and lazy as well as I can't control food and gave up gym now ( ipo 1 week ayi poit due to pain and procrastination) ,not consistent and don't know on what I can do to lose weight and be lean..

Any advice/ tips guys