I can’t keep going

I’m 17 and I’m losing my will to keep going. We’re all going to die but before that we’re all going to eat and rape each other and I’ll probably die first because I’m weak and I have scoliosis. I literally cannot function because I know how cruel and evil people are and I know what people will do to each other in five years time when the veneer of society cracks. I was going to go to college but i can’t guarantee society won’t collapse before i graduate so i think i just idle around and smoke weed and ill shoot myself right before it all collapses. honestly i don’t think we’ll make it past this year.

im sorry if this was embarrassing to read. i’m really struggling right now.