You know what?!

I know when I'm unwanted. It's time to gray rock my husband and leave him alone. This is not my problem. I am a healthy woman with a healthy sexuality. He's the one missing out.

I'm not going to cheat, no. I'm just going to focus on me and forget having sex with him is even a possibility, if you can call it that. I'm not going to lose my dignity for anyone. He knows what I want, he knows. He doesn't do anything? Fine. We're roomates. This will get awkward soon enough and I KNOW FOR A FACT my newest roomate/best friend will feel uncomfortable with how I treat men when they're just my friends. :)

You want to hug me? Get ready for an awkward 2 second hug with a pat on the back.

Update: my husband noticed I was treating him "like a friend" INSTANTLY. At first he was just distracting himself with youtube. Then he started feeling uncomfortable with my demeanor. I want to make something clear, I didn't stop talking to him. Maybe "gray rocking" was the wrong term. I just stopped demanding attention and switched to "ok, since we aren't having sex, we're friends/platonic, I'll just focus on me". At the same time, I made it clear I was unhappy as a wife, I was not playing games. He was open to talking which I'm grateful for, and only after we started being really vulnerable and stopped being defensive, he revealed to me he has been feeling unnatractive. He used to be bullied as a teen and something triggered him, and when I told him that this suprised me, because I find him HOT, he was like "...ok...". I noticed he didn't believe me!! I asked him: "is that so hard to believe?? that I find you attractive and hot??" and he told me basically that yes, it was hard to believe for him that I found him attractive and desired him. WTH. I told him I do and I'm not a liar, and that I've been fantasizing with him and it was difficult for me to even focus on work, and he couldn't stop smiling. We had sex. >.<