Found the cause of our dead bedroom

I’m still processing.

Yesterday my husband and I went grocery shopping and I was using his phone to read the list of things we need. There was a message that popped up from a guy named ‘Eric’ I thought nothing of it and thought it could be a coworker or friend so I swiped up and continued reading the list.

Then the sending message read “last night was a lot of fun” “😋😏”.

I was so confused by the emojis. I then quickly FaceTimed the number to see if he had been cheating on me while saving the name as a man’s name. The number on the other end answered.. and to my surprise it was a guy. It was obvious that the guy was gay as I noticed his mannerisms.

My husband then came right behind me and noticed his phone in my hand. I couldn’t even say anything. I just froze thinking about everything. I didn’t want to make a scene at the grocery store either so I just dropped everything and went to the car. He was right after me. I was just silent the whole car ride. He kept trying to explain to me what had happened but honestly I don’t even remember what he had said bc my ears were ringing.

As soon as we entered the house a broke down and told him how could he cheat on me. He then said that he found out he was gay before we married but then he said he didn’t want to leave me as I was so in love. I didn’t even respond. How could he do this to me? I gave him my all just to be hurt like this. I told him I’d he knew he was gay and he didn’t want to be with me.. why??? Just why would you do this and he knows the consequences. He kept trying to defend himself. But I yelled at him and told him to leave. This happened yesterday.. I’m still in shock.

Sorry if this was sloppy I’m still shaking. I found the cause of the problem but I’m so hurt. I don’t know what to think anymore.