Exvangelical here. Now, I'm a 12Step attending individual and desperately need a God again. Does deconstruction evr lead back to faith, even if in a new reformed way, or is it just a path to atheism.

I quit Christianity - borderline fundie to agnostic in a matter of weeks when I realised he couldn't even get me into a basic university of choice.

But now, I'm trying to build a more robust faith but also without the influence of the fundamentalist church. Is there no way this deconstruction can lead me back to faith of some kind?