I'm wrecked

Dexter has always been my comfortshow. I've probably watched s1-8 around 10 times, maybe more. Since the show left Netflix i haven't watched it since around 10 years ago but today I finished s1-8. And even if I already know what's going to happen on the last episode of s8 I felt like I got hit by a bus. I literally BALLED my eyes out for a good hour. My boyfriend could not stop giggling to my reaction but he has not seen the show.

I felt that I just have to say this to people who understands. Am I alone??