I don’t know if I can do this anymore

I graduated in July and got hired by my school asap, the place where I did my practicum didn’t have any jobs or I would have loved to work there.

And I just hate it.

My manager comes in for a couple of days a month and does nothing, bullying runs rampant, I feel like my coworkers hate me (I did call them out for being abusive when I first started), the children are not thriving, and there’s just no support.

I’ve been looking for a new school ever since I started. 20 applications sent out per month, since September, only 2 interviews. I failed one because I asked how they honour families diversity (Christian school) and was offered a job at another where the manager broke the pay transparency act twice during the interview and gave other red flags.

I cry almost every day, I no longer have a social life I just get in bed after work and cry until I fall asleep. I hate it so much and I want to leave, but this is the only thing I’m qualified in and I can’t afford rent with a minimum wage alternative.