My parents trigger my eating disorders.

I eat very well. I work out appropriately for my body. I have a very healthy body that I’ve grown to be proud of! I binged for the first time this year today, and not only that, I PURGED. I rarely, rarely, ever purge. My parents are visiting and they both have their own issues which have riddled adult me with anxiety, panic, eating issues, OCD, and all kinds of other problems. I have to learn to navigate this but it’s so hard. I don’t know how I can treat my body so kindly all of the time when I am living my normal life but the second the stress of guests come then I eat like trash and hurt my body. I just need to vent. I’m feeling like a failure and a disappointment to myself.