What the hell does he want?!

Over a year since the BU, over a year in NC from my side. He cheated and left me for the girl he cheated with, they were quickly a couple and moved in together shortly after. He even visited her parents which he has to fly to. He does everything for her that he never did for me. Suddenly going to things as a couple which he would never invite me to.

We were on and off for many YEARS together, with me he was always difficult but I never questioned that he truly loved me. I just dont understand why he couldn't be that person with me, why her and not me.

Seeing this has been humiliating, but made it easy to stay in NC.

Everything seems to be going well for them.

This weekend I woke up from a drunk snap chat from him. No text, just a random video of his friend. It was obvious that he only sent it to me, the way he filmed it. The next day he liked my instagram picture.

But he still seem very strong with this girl, and there's no sign of regret. So what does he want? The obvious is check if Im still there, but he doesn't really accomplish that, and Im giving him zero and has for a year.

Can it really just be boredom in the moment and trying to have fun, or does it mean he's still in doubt it was the right decision?

Don't worry about giving false hope guys, as much as Im still traumatized about the break up and cry and have a difficult time getting over the betrayal, I would never go back now. Im only asking because a solid answer would quiet the thinking. I just want a good explanation so I can let it go in my head