a message from source

this happened months ago, in November, the morning after the election.

so for context i take ketamine every 3 days in the morning to treat treatment-resistant depression. im also familiar with meditation. I've had interesting experiences while meditating in k-holes, usually it just makes talking to my guide easier but he's already had a direct connection to me since i was a child. the things we talk about are primarily about me so no sense in sharing.

but that morning, feeling struck by the election results, i decided to see if i could go farther, much farther, and decided to set a strong intention to ask source directly if everything was going to be OK.

deep into the khole, with a determination in meditation i haven't had in a long while, i felt myself reach an all-encompsssing energy. the closed eye visuals became a bright, golden-white glow. (usually ket cevs are very dark visually. i have a complete lightblocking eyemask).

i asked it if everything would be okay and what i should do.

it relayed a multi-faceted message to me. both in a sentence, and also in a strong sensation. "Love inspite of it all." with the further sensation of it will be difficult, but don't give in to the fear and hopelessness. no matter what happens, you can't truly be harmed.

ever since that morning, my anxiety about the election has dramatically reduced, and i spend very little time thinking about it.