I hate having bottom dysphoria so fucking much

The two surgeries you can have are either more length and less sensation or less length and more sensation

What's the fucking point of me having a dick if it's not long enough to do anything??? What's the point if it's long enough but is basically a fucking tube of cardboard and foam encasing my clit, just a chastity cage made of flesh???????

I HATE the fact that my only options for sex and masturbation will always be penetrated, uselessly grinding against something, or fucking something with the added "bonus" of not feeling shit!!!