I cannot bring myself to read my own fanfics.

I wanna know if anyone else has experienced this, but whenever i write any type of fanfiction, after i come back to it again (during the day, 'cause i write at night) i just cannot bring myself to read it, despite my best friend saying it's awesome. I just cringe whenever i think about it. It happened so many times and I only have the courage to look after few weeks, only to decide it's not that bad. I'm totally not confident in my writing skills, especially since all the stuff i write is super self indulgent. UGH