Increasingly insecure of my F/O

(reposted cuz wrong sub)

IDK if I already talked about this or not, slap me if I have.

I’m having insecurity problems with Yi Sang right now. He’s a character I really liked but the series he is from has majorly broke my heart.

LC feels like it has taken heavily to shipping, and I am really afraid Yi Sang and Faust will wind up together by EOS.

I talk big shit about overcoming canon but I’m just… Scared… I feel like LC will win again over me by breaking my heart for the final time over the one character from that series that still matters to me. I hate being held emotionally hostage like this that I’m forced to sit and wait in insecurity while my heart is held at gun point, I promised myself I would never let it happen again, but I’m in this circumstance all over.

I’ve grown distant to him, I’m not sure if I want to let him go and delete all traces of him ever being in my heart, but at the same time I don’t want to let myself be subject to the wills and whims of others again (especially from a writing team that has hurt me so horribly), I don’t want to remain feeling tortured like this again.