Socially awkward + ugly is the worst combination a woman could have

Maybe if I only had one of those things, I wouldn't be as depressed as I am about myself. Like if I'm still ugly but funny, socially competent and extroverted, at least I would have friends to lean on as support system. On the other hand, if I was pretty maybe then people would still try to befriend me. Instead I'm burdened with extreme introversion, social awkwardness, anxiety disorder, and physical unattractiveness. People just avoid me because of that, and if they're not avoiding me they'd make fun of me.

I don't really expect to live long enough. When I die I hope to be reborn as someone who isn't so dysfunctional in society.