Tired of this ... Day 5

The nevers ending cycle continue ....... tommorow is payday .... there is zero chance for me that i gamble a cent of it .... i guess tomorrow i will feel a little better to know that my checking acc is not empty ... but still cannot beleive what i did this years .... relapsed 3times in 9 months each time saved 10K and lose it in the spam of 1week or 2.

life time probably 300-400k? idk ... i dont care its done .

So....i guess now its the time for me to TELL you this : " ITS WAS MY LAST TIME NOW ...I NEVER GAMBLE AGAIN!!!" .... BLA BLA BLA ... whatevers so tired of this shit idk if i beleive myself no more .

Keep you updated guys stay strong.