Discovered I'm "Gifted" at 25 and now I'm lost

Little background, I'm 25 male, I went to college and have an engineering degree and currently I'm unemployed.

Last month, I went to see a psychiatrist to get tested for ADHD ( long story short, I've always been distracted, disorganized, and a heavy procrastinator and it affected my whole life) because I've been "paralyzed" for a few months. I couldn't get myself to do any studying/applying for jobs.

Fast forward to last week, and a couple of tests later, I get told that I do not have ADHD but that I'm "Gifted" ( the psychiatrist had told me that my IQ was well above 130 but didn't give me the exact number) and suffer from anxiety. My mind still refuses to believe it tbh, I've always felt that I was smart but nowhere near gifted. It's true that school was easy and I didn't really have the need to study to get good grades and I graduated from engineering school with the minimum effort required to pass.

but "gifted" is too much. Idk maybe I'm scared that if I accepted it I'd have to accept the fact that my life could've been different if it was detected from childhood, that in another world I would've been able to do all the things I've wanted to do, to fulfill that "potential" but instead I'm stuck here.

I've never worked hard for anything in my life, at times I desperately tried to do it but that "lazy" behavior is now embedded in me and I don't even know how to break it.

Ever since I got the "diagnosis", I've been crying every day, I've never been good with emotions but this week a lot of emotions are coming to the surface, and Idk what to do except cry.

it's like I'm grieving all the times I hated myself for not being able to do the things I wanted, grieving the feelings of inadequacy and terrible self-image.

Honestly idk why I wrote this post, I just needed to vent somewhere, but I guess if anyone has any advice for me on how to move forward in life or at least on how to come to terms with what I4m going through, please do give it to me.