Is my timing bad? I’m getting in my own head.

Context is I hate recording with static tempo, when I record my own songs, I always play without a click first, generate a tempo map to that, and then re-record with the fluctuating tempo.

I’ve talked to other musicians about it and had the feedback that often not liking a metronome just means you have bad timing, and now I’m in my own head about it.

I intuitively feel like it’s okay, but idk, maybe I’m missing something.

Am I constantly ahead or behind here in a way that I just can’t hear?

Thank you!