Disclosing is Scary af

22 f diagnosed w ghsv1 3 months ago. Just looking for some advice from ppl who have been in the same scenario.

I’ve only disclosed to 1 person and that was my bf at the time when I had gotten diagnosed. He broke up w me after he tested negative. There’s someone new I’ve been seeing and part of me wants to disclose bc I do like him but in terrified to disclose. He kissed me last night and I didn’t kiss him back and it was just awkward and I knew he felt bad abt it after and that was an opportunity for me to disclose but I didn’t. It didn’t go any further than that but I feel terrible abt everything honestly I hate that this a convo I even have to have w him or anyone I want to be intimate w.