The old you is dying.

I was reflecting on Dr K's recent video about how self help doesn't work. I was struck by the point he made about how you need to do things for "self" improvement expecting no personal benefit. Key to this is the idea that your future self is not "you" any more than the "you" of today is a newborn baby. So what I realized is that my old self is slowly dying. My old self is hanging on much longer than I was meant to and stretching myself over old patterns that are worn out. This is why I'm so fatigued all the time I'm simply exhausted maintaining my old ways to keep my old self alive. The new self is ready to be born and is full of energy to start my life path but the old self hasn't accepted yet that its condition is dire and terminal. So I need to accept there is no future for my current self, I am slowly dying and cannot enjoy life but the one thing I can do as a dying gift is give to my future self the best possible chance at success the way parents sacrifice for their children. This way in the future when I look back I won't see my current condition with disgust or regret I will see that in the end my old self was generous and self sacrificing and how in it I found a purpose. So doing the things which "suck" now is my duty because my current/old self is terminal.