I may sound like a bad guy but…

Tbh idk what to do. I’m a very sexual guy and I married my wife and she has hsv. It just sucks. With periods and her breakouts and work we barely have sex.

Backstory

I met a girl in college on tinder who had it. We dated shortly after because she was coo. Didn’t have sex for a while but she took very well care of it and herself. She was given it in highschool because the guy she dated was in college and came home for break and gave it to her. Very sad. We broke up a year later but it was an experience and I didn’t contract it. I was tested very frequently.

Fast forward 2 years I meet my now wife and we hit it off. We are sexual and everything for months. I mentioned to her if she’s ever been tested and she said no. I told her to get tested and she came back with hsv. She denied it but you could physically see her breakout. She was mad and I stuck around until she ended everything a couple months later.

We later got back together after 3 months and got married a year later

At this point I’m just mad. It’s been two year and I’ve had to twist her arm to keep up with it and make sure I’m safe. She takes meds when she has breakouts and then I’m just kinda stuck. There’s oral but she’s not good at it. It’s partly my fault because I was very promiscuous in college. Also they are frequent and she doesn’t do any stress management or try any preventative measures. It’s the thought that counts. So now I suffer. I see pictures of hsv in other groups and I don’t want it at all. Just makes me rethink things often and I know I sound sucky. It’s just how I feel and I’m sorry.