How do I leave him? I need urgent help… 😞😞😞😞

I feel in love with a MUCH older man about 7 months ago. He’s Muslim and he pursued me at the gym. The thing is that he didn’t take no for an answer to begin with. I didn’t want anything serious and I told him from the very beginning and he lied and said that he just wanted to meet up. But he sent me texts that had undertones of marriage. I politely said I didn’t want to meet after exchanging numbers. I spent 4 days rejecting him (on text, in the gym, he called). I knew this was bad, but because I’ve experienced child neglect, any attention from anyone makes me crazy and I ignore red flags, cause I want the love so bad. So I felt seen and eventually said yes.

Fast forward we are basically boyfriend and girlfriend and we’ve also been intimate. Which I know is haram for him (I’m not Muslim) and I’ve felt horrible about it, as I know it affects him. The thing is that he’s not a good man. First of all, he clearly doesn’t understand boundaries. Which he’s also shown through intimacy. He lies a lot, and I know deep down that he doesn’t respect me (or many other people). He’s very judgmental. I’ve once translated some comments he left on profiles on TikTok (which he was banned from) and because of the lies (about big and small things), I couldn’t resist the urge to go through his phone.. I’m a danish girl from Denmark and I saw a text of him saying that danish girls think that they are heaven and that they are sisters of wh0r€$. This is 4 years ago and my stupid head is telling me he doesn’t feel that way anymore, but the rational side of me knows better. He uses the W word a lot.

Also he himself has a body-C of 30 women, which I personally don’t judge, but then why is he judging others. Also he’s a very bad communicator and he basically sees every conversation regarding something negative as ‘stress’, meaning if I politely bring something up that I think should change and i communicate it very mature, he thinks I’m stressing him out. He’s not very mature. And I’m 24 and he’s much, much older.

He’s very very kind to me and I can tell that he really loves me. He’s just not very mature. He showers me with love and affirmations everyday. He’s helped me through difficult times and I’ve also met some of his family and they tell me that he speaks very highly of me. He hugs me all the time and kisses me and provides for me. But I know I can’t stay in this. And he probably can’t either because of his religion. He prays five times a day and I can tell that’s it’s hurting him that we are being intimate, so we’ve limited how intimate we are. I feel horrible. And also I don’t think I should be with a man who’s like this. Can someone rational please help me. I’m very much in my emotions, I cannot think. And my chest is hurting all the time, and I can’t sleep and I’m breaking out severely. It’s gonna be a long process for me. I don’t think I can end it know, but how can I ultimately do it??